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Me sitting on the couch listening to my clock and making it go from “tick tock tick tock” to “tock tick tock tick” back and forth in my head for 27 minutes straight.

They do, but not all the time. Most people can stay on one subject. With some ND individuals, particularly those with ADHD, one subject is every subject depending on what you are thinking at the time.

Carnivals could have easily become candy making videos, because spinning cotton candy is like the process of candy making on a tiny level, but hey, have you seen them break a candy bubble in this vid?

Candy like that is actually really hot and I bet those burns suck if you get one. I grabbed a stick in the fire once and didn’t see the hot coal on the end, so I could only imagine what molten candy would do to you.

Its basically molding edible magma. Speaking of magma, did you know that Old Faithful is an underground volcano and if it erupted it would probably destroy half of North America? At least, that’s what I heard.

From here we could go onto apocalypse talk, National Parks, or even the Yellowstone TV series. The world is your oyster and your brain will not stop.

My posts and comments here on Lemmy speak for themselves…

Here’s my anxiety/ADHD journey:

Lexapro: Could not orgasm. My elbows became weirdly restless and I couldn’t sleep for more than four hours. Started becoming manic. I didn’t want to commit suicide, but the idea didn’t really upset me, either.

Zoloft: Everything with the Lexapro except the anorgasmia.

Wellbutrin: Angry as all hell for two weeks, then that gave way into a drooling stupor where I was content to just do nothing. At least with my ADHD I could do half of something.

Duloxetine: Ever wanted to sleep more than a day? Take this. I couldn’t stay awake for more than two hours at a time before sleeping 5-10 hours again. Also had a side effect called “excessive, disrupting, and disturbing yawning”. I’d have yawn attacks that would last 20-30 yawns. They were actually kind of frightening.

In the end I wound up going back to Kratom. None of the above worked for me. I seemed to have every side affect in the book.

Edit: I will make an honorable mention for Hydroxyzine. Its like a super benadryl. Its like… part anti-histamine, part anti-anxiety, and part pain reliever. Its generally super safe; it doesn’t mess with your body’s chemical balance.

That means you can take a hydroxyzine with most other meds and safely drink on it (it does compound the dizzyness and sleepyness so do NOT drive). Here’s the good part: with ADHD one standard pill will put you into a calm focus and you’ll feel awake (roughly 4-6 hours). Two at bedtime has the severe side effect of pillow drooling. You’ll go night night and it won’t force you to sleep (which tends to give me even worse panic attacks).

And it is EXTREMELY easy to get a prescription for, since its probably one of the safest and least mind altering anti anxiety you can take.

I’m not trying to be mean here, but if I’m reading the meaning of this post correctly, it feels like you really haven’t dived that far into open source. There are thousands of FOSS projects that do exactly as you say, and yes, some get branded and bloated.

But like… that doesn’t mean that what is out there needs to strip away anything. It just means that you have to keep looking and possibly contributing even if its just reporting bugs.

For example, Firefox. Have you even checked around? Falkon, Qutebrowser, Ladybird (still in alpha), Nyxt; there’s a handful of QTWebEngine browsers already doing just fine. Not to mention the plethora of stripped down Firefox forks for both desktop and Android like Fennec, Ironfox, Floorp, Firedragon, and Zen. There’s also a stripped down base Chromium browser, which I believe is de-Googled.

I’m just not quite sure what you want to achieve here.

Me: …I forgot what I was going to put here, but rest assured it was something clever.

I’m an extroverted introvert type when it comes to my ADHD. I used to be much more extroverted than I am now. I had a good group of friends in high school, and a lot of off-on friends because they’d get sick of me routinely.

However, there was one friend who was also ND. If you got us in a group together we would go on and on, way too oxerexcited to care about anything else. My friend would get jealous of me “monopolizing” her, because “she was his friend first”. My ex-girlfriend would get jealous of her because it seemed like I got along better with her than my own gf.

Everyone thought we were perfect for each other. Everyone thought we were secretly having an affair. The truth is we were two ND that understood each other in a school full of people who believed ADHD was fake and an excuse to be lazy. We were the two most hyper and flighty people in our entire school.

Did she wind up having a crush on me? Yes. She later told me. Before that, though, she once handcuffed us together and had us walk around town, I sorta figured it out then. Did I have a crush on her? Also yes. But in the end we understood that it couldn’t work. Her plus me equalled absolute pure chaos and sometimes not in a good way. We ran in two completely different groups and worlds.

It was nice to have someone who was just as “annoying” as I was though.

I love list launchers, but I just can’t stop using Kvaesitso. It has a list mode for apps and one optional dock for your first x amount of favorites. But it really shines when it comes to widgets. Swipe up to go through a widget list.

I need to have my two coffee timers and one tea timer widget as well as my step counter and audiobook player, so I need something with widgets and Kvaesitso does it so well.

I agree. The whole situation went completely different in my head, tbh. I’ve tried to get my 65 year old step mom to switch. If she does eventually, I’d set her up with what she needs and give her a run-down.

I was thinking more along the lines of an “up a creek without a paddle” situation where you have the local Linux buff put it on and then start messing with stuff on your own.

See, that’d make more sense to me. In my mind I was seeing someone just installing Linux and poof, that’s it, you’re on your own.

I should change my statement then; just installing Linux for someone is a bad idea. Stepping them through the small basics as you go is a good idea.

Plus, the first step to learning Linux is figuring out how to install Linux.

If you can’t do the easiest part of Linux you’re going to have a bad time with the rest of Linux.

Edit: Well, wait up. Doing it for someone is one thing, teaching them enough to get by is another.

The way the post is stated, my brain went, “here’s your PC with Linux on it, bye.”

I think any active community would be more than happy to help, tbh. The thing about the Linux community is that we love troubleshooting. That’s half the fun of Linux, honestly. I would pick something more active over something more specific. Some of the communities here have latest posts dated weeks ago.

I have insomnia. I sleep 4 hours at a time most days. Every tiny noise wakes me. Every bump my apartment neighbors make gives me heart palpitations. I can’t even sleep with my partner’s light snoring some nights. I can’t keep a normal sleep schedule. I know what I’m talking about.

There are nights and days I can’t sleep at all. The anxiety then builds and I can’t sleep because now I’m way too past tired to be tired. Everything trembles in my vision and I see weird diagonal static everywhere I look. Light becomes too much for me to even bear and the migraines become intense.

And you know? I don’t take it out on my partner. I worked with my doctor to fix it. Was the answer prescription drugs? Yes. It had to be. Nothing else would work. Dyphenhydramine sets off my RLS and SSRIs set off RLS in my arms for some reason.

I wouldn’t have fucking weighed in if I didn’t know what I was talking about. Step off with your assumption crap.

Edit: I’ll keep the original message, but after reading it I realized I got way too heated and I want to apologize. As someone with severe anxiety, ADHD, and insomnia I just felt slighted. You didn’t realize that I could have insomnia. I’m sorry for lashing out at you.

I just know the hell of insomnia all too well. I go down rabbit holes of anxiety and feel the pain of material existence on a daily basis. In order to sleep, I need to armor up, grab a sword, and prepare to fight a goddamn dragon some days, but I’ll be damned if I let it control my life and my relationship.

In that case, your partner should find a solution to their sleeping disorder. I can open chip bags, do dishes, drop things, watch TV and there’s no issue if my partner is asleep. And our apartment is small. She is a deep sleeper though.

I’m the light and agitated sleeper, actually. And instead of lashing out or pointing fingers, I got it addressed. Now on bad sleep nights I take two hydroxyzine for anxiety and light sleeplessness two hours before bed. I sleep so hard I tend to drool everywhere. Normally I’m a high anxiety jaw clencher when I sleep.

I highly recommend looking into something like that. Hydroxyzine is a very light and harmless option. Its an antihistamine, which makes it good for allergies as well. Its basically a strong benadryl. There are some other benefits as well, like muscle relaxation, pain relief, nausea relief, and airway opening.

As someone with ADHD and sleep trouble, it works good. Doctors are pretty relaxed about prescribing it, since its very high on the safety meter and non-habitual. Sorry for going off on a tangent, but it seems like your partner could have a slight sleep disorder, especially if its gone so far to put you both in separate rooms (if that is the case).

The real question is, do they HAVE to be there for them to go to sleep? Because if they needed to sleep, what stopped them? Sounds to me like there’s a sleeping problem here and that’s not OP’s fault.

I don’t see any way that OP messed with their sleep. A simple “I’m going to bed, try not to be too loud when you come home.” would have done wonders. Then OP could chat, come home, do whatever chores quietly, and go to bed.

Whether you have a job or not does not relate to what privileges of freedom you get.

I really don’t think its your ADHD here. I have it bad. My partner lets me get on with it and goes to bed whenever she wants. We also split chores based on our schedule and to account for my ADHD she got us a whiteboard, because my greatest super power is to get absorbed in something and forget everything. Your partner could have taken the chores that night so you could do what you needed to get help for yourself.

My last relationship was a “need to be in bed at the same time” relationship. I remember when I worked nights and had a night off. We got into a huge fight which culminated into me going to lay down on the couch instead of next to her like she wanted. She then came out of the room and beat me around the head with a metal katana sheath (so hard that it dented).

This is a less of your ADHD problem and more of a “you guys need your own schedule and space” problem. You should iron out this attached-at-the-hip thing first. It’s cute in the beginning of a relationship, but can ultimately end it in a very ugly way. It will lead to insecurity and turn into a relationship of need and envy. You gotta learn to exist alongside each other, not be one entity (despite what marriage and religion tries to tell you).

I’ve had two relationships. One for 7 years where we had to do everything together or else had to check in via text. That ended in both of us fighting and cheating (both sides) and never talking again. The second is a quiet coexistence. We can tell each what we’re going to do with an open invitation. Sometimes we do it together, sometimes we want to do something else. That relationship is on 13 years and counting. We RARELY go to bed at the same time or wait up.

Sit down together and apologize for the belittling things you said. Explain what you have written here to them. These are words they need to hear. And then address the problem of not being able to do things like sleeping without one another. If they wanted to go to bed at 9:30, they should have been able to do so.

I was annoyed about the seatbelt laws, but I was a little kid at the time. I came from an era of riding in the back of dad’s truck and enjoying the breeze. Hell, I went from New England to Canada in the back of a capped truck. I was eight years old and never thought anything of it.

However, as I got older into my teens I got more adamant about using a seat belt, even when the laws were still sorta gray here (you were let off with no warning most times). Now its second nature, even if I’m heading 3 mins to the store. Some people still don’t because they think that they’re only endangering themselves. Thing is, I have a brother in law that’s a first responder. He’s seen people torpedo out of windows in head-on collisions and into the other car, injuring the other driver/passengers.

Honestly, I don’t get what the whole problem is. You barely even notice them on you. Most people who don’t put on a simple and comfortable safety belt are just being fucking stubborn children who don’t like being told what to do. I’m glad I grew out of that way of thinking. Some my family are those “good ol’ natural borns”. They’ll tell me I don’t have to put my seatbelt on and every time I adamantly say, “I always do”. My other brother in law will literally crank the radio so he can’t hear the seatbelt alarm. Drives me insane, but I love the idiot.

I have three go to genres. Old westerns, old martial arts movies, and the old Godzillas. Run them at low volume and off I go…

I want this to be good, but I agree with all these points, right down to the possibility that we may never even see this thing released.

I feel that. My feral stray came to me when I was living with friends. We had a falling out and they wouldn’t let me take her. It was their place, so I had no say. A couple years later I was visiting my favorite local shelter to play with the cats there and I saw her.

I was so mad. She remembered me and it broke my heart that I could not take her with me at that time, as I had maxed out my cat allowance with my landlord. They didn’t even have the decency to tell me. Their cats were not there, so I know they just threw her away and I was livid. I guess they at least had the decency to take her to the shelter…